Wednesday, August 30, 2006,8:54 PM
My 10 Commandments:
1) Thou shall not falter.
2) Thou shall not fall.
3) Thou shall not love.
4) Thou shall not hate.
5) Thou shall not remember.
6) Thou shall not forget.
7) Thou shall not trust.
8) Thou shall not doubt.
9) Thou shall not give in.
10) Thou shall not stand strong.
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i hated it when memories come bk to haunt me.
i hated it when i start to slow down my pace and look longingly at the places we've been together.
i hated ur aloofness, and my weakness.
i hated it everytime u said u really did care and i believed it.
i hated it dat ur passing appearance in my life can affect it so much.
i hated it dat everytime i tried to move on, ur shadow juz wun leave me alone.
i hated the fact dat i loved u.
but from now on, i wun hate any of the above anymore.
treasure the memories and accept the facts, dats all i can do.
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006,9:57 PM
Juz a random post:
Pisces:Yours is a personality which is a combination of all the zodiac. You may be gifted musically or artisticly, and creativeness is inherent in you. You are a great empathiser, always knowing how someone else is feeling. This makes you a good councellor and a sensitive lover. You enjoy solitude occasionally and like to get away from it all and be alone in order to regain your senses.
Gemini:There are two sides to your personality, as indicated by the twins of gemini. You are an excellent communicator, being clever with words and always able to get your point across eloquently. You are an independent being, you do not like to rely on others for happiness or wellbeing and you are always changing because you find that you bore of things and situations easilly.
Cancer:You are a strongly career minded person, and this can sometimes get in the way of relationships if your partner is not dedicated. On the interpersonal side, you show a lot of compassion and people will come to you with their problems as they recognise that you feel deeply the needs of others. You are a sensitive nurturer and make a great parent.
How true? only the pple involved will noe. mine is though. :)
Compatible Star-Signs for Pisces:
Scorpio, Cancer, Capricorn and Taurus
hah, not very true.
Monday, August 28, 2006,2:27 PM
1 free day today.
cant wait for my schedule for sept and hopefully the mths to come.
i wanna continue working at ihub!
*fingers crossed*
tmr start sch again. aarrghhh.
gotta be nice and form project grps very soon. double aarrgh.
my supervisor STILL doesnt want to tok 2 me abt my dissertation after nearly 4mths!
gotta door-crash his office very soon. triple aarrgghh.
mp3 player died again.
juz 2 days after i sent it for repair!
dun ever buy china brand man.
i m gonna stick to sg, european, american or japan brands now. irritating.
fate is 1 hell of a thing.
it owns u when u least expect it to come in.
it brings u momentary happiness and takes it all bk in double the time.
u thought u had it in ur hands, but only to realise u never had it at all.
it is like the wind, comes and goes as and when it likes.
but it's always used as an excuse for an end.
i missed u.
Thursday, August 24, 2006,8:28 PM
我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚
我不需要谁温柔安抚
请放心我很快能恢复
不准哭我
不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路
挡不住你追逐不准哭我更
应该微笑祝福祝你找到对的幸福
如果我消失不见
你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊我很在乎
因为
爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是
我的最後让步不准哭我学不会微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福
Tuesday, August 22, 2006,9:45 PM
sigh. bouts of bad luck.
1) yest when i opened the freezer to put a pkt of frozen mantou in, a 500g pkt of frozen chicken wings flew out and crashed on my feet! hard frozen chicken wings! lucky its juz a small 500g pkt, and not a 1kg box of Tyson chicken wings! but its enuff to cause a small blue-black on my toe. aarrgghh.
2) when i was happily listening to my mp3 player on the way to sch, it suddenly started shutting off and switching on automatically as and when it likes, and has been like dat for the whole day, despite me silently cursing n swearing at it and hitting it to hopefully make it work. so my songs get disrupted and my mp3 player is declared mad. and i have to brg it for repairs tmr with an overdue warranty and hope i can bluff my way thru. and i m stuck with a portable radio instead for the time being. aarrgghh.
3) when i drove bk after tuition, was trying to park the big car in my hse, accidentally misjudged and caused a TINY scratch behind the right-hand mirror when it brushed against my gate. in the end got a hell lot of nagging n scolding from dad becoz of that TINY scratch which he managed to wipe away with turpentine. he kp saying how my estimation is so lousy n blah blah. even my mum tried to side me. hey, sumtimes pple need to learn from small lessons like dis wat! aarrgghh.
i wanna get away from sg too.
best is for a few mths if not a yr.
regretted not studying hard enuff to go for exchange prog.
Friday, August 18, 2006,11:13 PM
sch has started, managed to cram in the last mod for dis sem
which brgs it to a total of 6mods, including dissertation.
trying to shuff everyting in a 4-day wk. heh.
1st wk of sch, and i attended a nite lec, went for a waste-of-time morn lec, had 1 lec cancelled, and skipped 2 lecs. LOL.
i shall learn to be a nerd dis sem. i'll try.
started by photocopying my 1st set of readings for 2 mods yest.
now its juz a matter of whether i will read it anot. :)
went for dinner juz now to celebrate dad's bdae tmr.
shall blog abt the food in the food blog.
wanted to either pay 4 the dinner, or give parents a hongbao for their bdaes
but starhub HAVEN give me my pay!!
so now i m still 1 broke little me. aarrggh.
watched Click with fenix couple of days bk.
quite a nice show, funny yet touching. :)
went to celebrate a fren's bdae yest with yiwei and fenix.
had Pepper Lunch, but forgot to take pics, so no entry abt it.
but i guess its noting too fabulous, juz sumting new, dats all.
they all felt we shld juz buy a hotplate home and cook our own food in it. lol.
asked a buddy wat does she think my bad points are, and the 1st ting she said was dat i m too honest.
honesty, it seems, shld not entirely exist in this world.
it shld be mixed with sum white lies, a little craftiness, and a pinch of deceit?
all for the purpose of protecting oneself.
i would have refuted her outright in the past.
but now, she juz have too many cases of mine to cite to shut me up.
lying is tiring, hiding is worse.
esp to the person u love.
Monday, August 14, 2006,10:18 PM
last yr of uni life is starting tmr.
stupid blur me forgot to bid for 1 more mod dis sem.
so gotta try and cram it in tmr. damn.
i shld learn how 2 be a nerd if i wanna grad. :(
the world is damn small.
ok, at least the circle of PLUs.
a bad name travels a hundred miles, a gd one only travels ten.
shrugz.
hope i can see u soon, have a surprise in the waiting. :)
Saturday, August 12, 2006,11:06 PM
sat is finally ending.
my section of the pl gathering is over.
a very big thank you to ahbu, mich n char for coming!
finally get to work tmr.
sch starts next tues.
i really hope u r feeling better somehow.
although i know theres nothing much i can do or say.
this world is getting disgusting.
heaven always makes a sport of man.
because of such players, i got hurt twice, and am now on the verge of losing a buddy.
so great.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006,11:21 PM
happy national day gals. :)
for the 1st time, i actually took the pledge along w the pple in NDP.
ok, kind of. i didnt really say out the words. heh.
its hard to plan a big grp outing.
realised this the 2nd time.
i need to stop u from entering my dreams everynite. really.
i need to get out of the house too.
to somewhere with no1.
Saturday, August 05, 2006,10:18 PM
phew, 1st day of roadshow over.
not as many pple as i expected, so was quite free most of the time.
dats y can come bk early to blog mah.
damn tired, imagine standing for 10hrs man!
lazy legs r breaking man.
oh well, $$ hard to earn, going bk tmr to work again.
at least working takes my mind off u.
at least the pple there r quite frenly too.
so got pple to tok to. heh.
i love u, u noe dat?
its ok if u dun, coz i dun intend to let u noe. yet.
i juz realised it not long myself too.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006,11:29 PM
i tink i noe wat i wanna do.
its juz whether i can stick by it anot.
its not easy to raise the white flag when emotions are involved.
i hope u can do it, becoz i tink i cant.
