Sunday, December 31, 2006,10:09 PM
yeah, guess u guys muz be surprised why am i actually blogging this at 10.10pm on New Yr's Eve when most of Sg's youths r out for the countdown.
coz i guai mah, so stay at home countdown loh. lol.
no lah, coz the other half got a gathering w friends, and since i will be out the whole day tmr and most of tues, she suggested dat i stay at home 2nite to make parents happy.
and since no other pple asked me out 2nite, oh well, save $$ loh.
had abalone w veg, sum not-tasted-before chicken and fish w rice for dinner.
dad opened a bottle of red wine too, but i only had 2 glasses, coz wine ain't exactly my fav, esp reds.
also gd lah, scarley parents say i jiu gui again. :/
after staring at this screen for a few mins, i realised dat actually i dun really have much to blog (or prob its the "brain-stoning" effect from the red wine).
so to all who is reading this, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Thursday, December 28, 2006,11:01 PM
its the time of the year where i have to plan my mods for the next sem again.
but this time, its the last sem.
i have to get thru every mod.
no more 2nd chances for me.
i am already in danger of graduating WITHOUT honours.
but everytime i tink of this last sem, i m scared.
i have so many things to do, but so little time.
i have to attend lessons, do projects, complete my dissertation, work, give tuition and leave some time for my personal life, but all i have is 24hrs a day, including slping time.
i noe u all will prob say, "dun work lah! last sem liao!"
but i cant, i need the $$.
so wat will suffer the most is my personal life.
less time for the other half, even lesser time at home.
but i cant foresee anything now, so i juz have to live each day as it comes.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006,9:52 PM
changed my blog addy coz dun wan pple to try n hack into my blog.
changed the PW too.
if pple wanna come in to visit, pls have the courtesy to ask.
if i dun give, den DUN force me.
simple enough?
went char's hse for gathering yest.
her mum's food was nice, as always. :)
and she treated us to lots n lots of chocs, yum.
looking forward to CNY, where theres gonna be food and lots of bridge/mj (i tink). :)
eating at double the time i usually take now.
all thx to an irritating ulcer on the left gum.
so now i can only eat on the right side.
maybe i shld only brush the teeth on the right side too.
dun watch The Curse of The Golden Flower.
its a damn dumb show. in all aspects.
esp not on a wkend.
u might juz end up wanting to kick urself in the butt.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006,9:58 AM
had 1 of the worst christmas nites yest.
from young, christmas was always 1 of the festive seasons i will be looking forward to.
presents aside, its supposed to be a day where pple all ard me, regardless of whether we noe each other anot, are all smiling and having fun, sharing good food and drks.
but yest, none of dat came.
even a meal at ikea was packed w pple consisting of ugly singaporeans.
and the worst thing was having to face an i-dunno-wat-u-call-dat session from both of my parents. on christmas nite.
why cant pple juz fucking leave me alone to my own life?
was so pissed dat i skipped dinner and went str8 up to my rm when i came home, and stayed in there till dad make me go to his rm for another rd of "talks".
yah go ahead, blame me for everything.
my life is supposedly unhappy? my fault.
ur blood pressure increase? my fault.
u both worry juz becoz i come bk ltr den ur curfew? my fault.
any of u die early? my fault.
i dun bother to explain anything coz i dun see a need to? my fault.
wat else?
and when i finally get to return to my rm after dat, mum had to come in and start her whole round of "talks" again.
SERIOUSLY? all i wan is peace.
but none of them seems to get the hint.
dun make history repeat itself.
i am tired of it enough.
dun make me end up doing wat i dun wanna do.
ok, on a lighter note, i passed all my exams.
1 B+, 4 B-, but CAP 2.51 only.
but Starhub shld be saved from being blamed for bad results.
Monday, December 25, 2006,2:21 PM
merry xmas to all!
was out the whole day yest.
in the morn went to jas's baptism ceremony at toa payoh methodist church (i tink).
cant rmb when was the last time i stepped into a real church man (or did i ever?).
but i noe this was definitely the 1st time i sat thru 2hrs of chinese service!
everything ranging from the speech, prayers and songs are all in chinese!
so more than half the time, i was either trying to read-cum-sing silently along w the chinese lyrics, or trying to understand the chinese words the pastor was saying.
aye, my chinese ain't dat bad ok, its juz dat christian stuff in chinese sounds abit alien. heh.
after dat pei ahbu n cheryl to go have their lunch at sum toa payoh hawker ctr.
but i didnt eat coz wanted to eat w gf ltr, so dat
she wun have to eat alone.
so in the end kenna suan. kaoz.
anyway, wateva.
met gf at town after dat, and it was raining AGAIN.
and
she was nearly 2hrs late! (ok lah, juz wanted to complain abit lah, no harm mah, heh)
went heeren to have
her "cheap-and-nice" Pontian wanton mee for lunch, den went for a free facial at Specialist ctr. (yes yes, i will pass u guys the free vouchers tmr)
wah lao, the lady say our skin like machiam so bad like dat, wat enlarged pores and lots of blackheads! sry man, that trick to make us waste $$ to sign up their packages doesnt work. hah.
but she was trying to tui xiao dis derma-abrasion treatment to us, and she repeated her whole speech like at least 5 times?! *faintz*
n all the while i was trying to look like i m paying attention and trying not to laugh AND waiting for her to ask me whether i wan the package anot so i can FINALLY reject her.
aye, ME rejecting someone leh! no more the "err, orr ok loh" person hor. lol.
and den when we finally got down to the actual facial, my ermz "facist" (person who did the facial for me) started saying my skin again! and my eyebrows too! grrrrr.
she say why i never shape my brows lah, and dat all the gals now wanna dress up and shape their brows to look pretty lah, and dat i have alot of facial hair lah, and i machiam nearly have a moustache lah, and blah blah blah lah! and all i wanna do is bloody close my eyes n slp!! urgh.
anyway, after dat it was STILL raining, so we went to cityhall to walk ard and get dinner (orchard is NOT a place to go during public hols man).
she had a damn gd idea of buying diff kinds of food den sit down sumwhere nice to eat.
so we ended up w super-salty chips from market place and honey ribs, teriyaki chicken steak, salmon sushi and beer from carrefour. :)
and since the bloody rain refused to stop and pple were everywhere, we sat down at the steps near the Merlion in the rain (ok, juz drizzling bah) and ate dinner. 1st time eh.
and after dinner, we still can each have a cigg IN THE RAIN. lol.
brot our beer n chips and shifted from place to place coz everywhere we go, our peace will be disturbed after awhile again. urgh.
so we went from the merlion, to the tent outside esplanade to the esplanade roof garden and finally outside marina square. lol.
sat there all the way till ard 12.45, den
she chased both of us home.
overall, a great day!
cant wait for new yr's eve now. :)
Saturday, December 23, 2006,3:08 PM
christmas dis yr shld be not bad.
had our 3rd mth anni yest.
went with cheryl to get her K800i (we travelled all ard town and central mind u!), b4 proceeding to cec's hse for mj.
tink cec waited for us until her neck grew long le, heh.
went hm for dinner coz granny came over for dinner.
met
her after her company dinner at clarke quay.
slacked at TCC for dunno how long, den finally took nite rider bk to my place.
she was really damn lucky yest and dis morn man! *shakes head*
hmmz 22nd muz be a gd day 4
her. :p
relatives coming to my place 2dae for family gathering (the 1st family already arrived), so prob gotta be busy entertaining them 4 the whole day.
tmr gg out the whole day too.
gg to jas's baptism ceremony at 9.30am at toa payoh (dunno how the hell m i gonna to wake up so early), den meeting
her after dat all the way till countdown!
hope parents not gonna nag abt late nites again.
and i guess i have to leave christmas day for family. heh.
and 26th gg char's pl for lunch n dunno wat else.
but i have no more slots for the rest of this mth!
no work=no $$. urgh.
oh well.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006,9:51 PM
finally at home at dis time.
have been slogging my butt out 4 the past 6 days.
PS on fri, ihub on wkends, PS on mon, ayer rajah office on tues and 2dae.
and all i get in return for now is a serious lack of slp, 2 blk panda eyes, cuts all over my hands, and a hole in my wallet. great.
cant wait 4 the 30th.
celebrated a colleague's bdae in office juz now, and had abit of his rum n raisin cake which is not bad.
and another colleague bot me 2 pkts of beancurd dessert for christmas, 1 grn tea, 1 mango flavour, coz my nickname is apparently now "ba shi si kuai dou fu" (literally, 84 dollars beancurd). diaoz.
starhub is not an easy place to work in.
esp not if u r a self-perfectionist and has an ego.
kinda looking forward to christmas, though i m not very sure why.
maybe coz will be spending 2 days w the pl gang, and having my 1st countdown on christmas eve w the other half. :)
Friday, December 15, 2006,9:06 PM
2day's a bad day at work.
made a stupid mistake dat costs me $84.
and the pay dat supposedly came in is only ard dat amt.
which means i m left with naught again.
couldnt believe dat i could actually make dat fucking dumb mistake.
but my colleague helped me do a refund, juz dat i dun noe when can i get the $$ bk.
kenna niam by her nearly the whole day.
it was my fault anyway.
that mistake nearly cost me my cash and reputation.
and it didnt help dat my colleague kept saying "i cant believe u can make such a mistake, wo dui ni tai shi wang le lah".
i noe she didnt really mean it and she was juz trying to make fun of me (i tink).
but the only reaction i could give her was "dui bu qi lah, i wun repeat it anymore, i promise."
and she carried on by saying "wah, if rozina (my boss) put u with a bu zai cashier, u both surely have to settle until midnite oso cannot settle the amt loh".
and the only reaction i can give was "dats why i can only work with pro cashiers like u all mah".
felt damn fake after saying it.
and she added the 3rd bomb by saying "actually rozina tinks u r zai de loh, dats why she give u more slots mah".
yeah, wat m i supposed to say after dat? sry loh.
and after dat, i nearly forgot to collect a $250 deposit from a customer.
dats like $125 per person!
wtf.
lucky the guy was nice enuff to ask me if he had to pay anything, den i went to double chk the form b4 giving him his stuff.
urgh, duno wat the hell i m doing today.
so now i am $84+accumulated cab fare deficit.
juz great.
Thursday, December 14, 2006,10:25 AM
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说都没有救
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
,8:59 AM
sigh, received another long email from mum again.
in deep financial problems.
and i m supposed to stay at home more often to lend my listening ears.
as always, i dunno wat to reply.
i wished i was working full-time now.
i noe i will miss the sch hols and the lax timetables, but i can deal w the stress, i noe i will.
i guess the only way to make them happy is to give them $$.
which is sumting i cant do as yet.
i dun even noe is it becoz i cant set my priorities right or dat i dun even noe wat i shld prioritize on.
had a few not so nice but dumb dreams last nite.
i dun even noe if they r considered dreams coz i still roughly rmb wat they r abt coz i didnt really slp well.
i noe the latest 1 was that i went swimming and i suddenly nearly drowned in the deep section coz my lungs suddenly gave way or sumting.
and i tink sum guy rescued me and sent me to the hospital.
so i was juz stuck there in a coma for days, my hp was on silent in my bag, unnoticed.
until
she left a msg on my tagboard asking if any1 noes where i have been, to contact her.
den cheryl called my hse, and my bro told her wat happen.
and whole pl gang and
her and the rest of them turned up at my hospital bed the next day.
and i still haven woke up.
until
she was tearing and said sumting to me, den i suddenly opened my eyes and moved my fingers.
yah, i noe very drama lah, i cant help it mah, it juz appeared in my mind lah.
and the story goes on... lol.
will be clubbing w
her at zouk ltr.
working at PS rdshow on fri.
and ihub on wkends.
cant wait 4 pay to come in.
and mum juz came in the rm and ask me to "fan xing fan xing yi xia, kan ni zhe zhong shen huo shi bu shi hao de, zhen tian bu zai jia..." kaoz.
urgh. not blogging anymore.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006,10:51 PM
went for the mthly outing with the pl gang juz now.
went for k lunch at 11.
there were 4 of us, n only 3hrs of ktv, so didnt really sing DAT many songs, but ok lah.
showed them who was li yuchun n zhou bi chang, and they said that they were pretty androgynous, so i told them they r bungs.
but they couldnt hear me clearly, so i pointed to me and drew an imaginary circle ard my face, den they understand. lol.
after dat went cec's hse for mj.
played all the way from 2+ till 6+, till our brains all turn to mush liao loh.
mrs koh had to sit next to me and help me for a few rds coz i was losing quite badly sia.
den after dat, she went over to ahbu's side to help her.
but lucky last few rds managed to recoup bk my losses and earn sum cash.
paid for our cab fare to grapevine for dinner coz we all er bian le.
and the left over earnings were used to subsidize my dinner there.
so basically, i m bk to square one. lol.
told mum i wun be eating dinner at home for the rest of the wk, den she said "wah u borrow $150 from me den can start spending liao ah?" pengz.
den i told her i will be getting pay soon liao lah.
den she grumble abit abt losing this half-a-million dollars biz. sigh.
i tink she cant wait 4 me to come out n work full time so i can give her $$. shrugz.
this wk's prog is settled.
gg ihub n PS tmr, den meeting her after her work.
gg zouk on thurs.
meeting her after her work on fri.
working on sat n sun.
den 1 wk is over! woohoo!
muz start planning for next wk liao.
hope i get sum wkday slots to work. *crosses fingers*
Monday, December 11, 2006,4:50 PM
bk again.
after working for 4 consecutive days at vivo, all i did 2dae was nua.
woke up at 1+ dis afternoon, had lunch n watch tv, and napped again ard 2 till 4+.
lol, felt like toufu when i finally crawled out of bed sia.
was half-mushed till i actually msged my mum a msg dat was meant for
herlucky it wasnt too dangerous.
mum muz have been happy for a short moment dat i called her 'dear'.
dat she decided to cook tom yam soup 4 me tonite (ok, she kinda decided dat yest). lol ooops.
damn broke man.
spent 50+ in cab fares these 2 days coz had to work till past midnite.
but can only get it bk ard mth end. urgh.
the total no of hrs i slept these past 3 nites is prob equal to the amt i slp on 1 wkend nite.
5hrs on thurs nite, 4hrs on fri nite and 4hrs on sat nite. woah.
but no prob lah, am still young n strong.
even offered to take over from my colleague for 2dae's rdshow if she cannot wake up, or take over her partner if my boss allow.
but in the end we all forgot to ask, so nvm loh, 2dae nua at home.
sat nite n yest was crazy.
sat nite had midnite sales, after 8pm, all hps were going at a $50 disc all the way till12 am.
and still have sure-win lucky dip and free gift.
u could see the big diff in the no of customers b4 and during the sales.
typical singaporeans.
dunno if i would even bother buying hps at nite.
as usual, there are alot of 'patient' last min customers, so we were only able to do closing ard 1+,
by the time we r done, its 3am.
and the next morn have to report at 9.30am. sigh.
all of us juz conked off in bed after bathing. lol.
yest was the last day of the rdshow, and as usual, STILL got last min customers goin for the $50 disc n lucky dip. was supposed to end at 10pm, but we only finished the last customer ard12+.
my boss was quite kan cheong to close nearing the end until we all stressed up lah.
den suay suay, she was standing near my counter when i was doing a customer, den i tink she wanted to help so she started taking over the comp from me, so of coz i let her take over lah (she my boss leh!), so i juz stand there n help her read out info, and press sum stuff and scan codes n blah, den after the customer leave she ask me how come i m so afraid of doing with her. pengz.
ok, she didnt ask me directly, she more of tell my colleague who is next to me, and my colleague oso say "yeah, she like oso abit scared when working w me leh". i nearly fainted.
den my colleague turn to me and ask (in front of my boss) "i very fierce meh?"
so of coz i muz ans "huh, no lah, i tot u all wanna do so i dun disturb loh. i tot u wan to be fast fast, so i try to do fast fast loh."
den when my boss not listening, my colleague turn to me and whisper "actually when i 1st do with her(my boss) i oso very scared de". pengz again.
I AM NOT SCARED OF WORKING WITH EITHER OF THEM!
sigh. its juz dat the cashier counter was super freaking packed and we all had to squeeze ard like sardines so i can only stand ard and help loh.
den of coz if ur boss already dong shou liao, u cant exactly 'snatch' the work from her rite? no?
sigh.
but i wun deny, i work better alone. shrugz.
den earlier int he day, my boss and colleague say i very fierce, ask me dun so fierce.
sigh. BUT I WASNT FIERCE!
ok, maybe once or twice when my colleague was reading out the hp nos for me to type, she read out in chi, and i told her in a teeny-bit louder voice to read it in eng instead. coz my brain takes a longer time to process words in chi (i 'eat potato' de mah), and i was serving a customer so not too nice to make them wait too long mah. den they say i fierce liao. ok, maybe i cant really rmb wat else i did. i only noe i was damn tired and slpy but was forcing myself to be 'zai', coz cant let them kan bian wo.
starhub pple are VERY results/performance-oriented.
so during dunch brk, i juz told my colleague dat when i m tired, i dun like pple to disturb me when i m doing sumting serious, dne i told her abt sum incidents in ihub, den she "orr, ok", den she say her temper is also not gd most of the times and blah.
haiz. i have a strong sense dat i have to be fake alot of times in order to survive in starhub. wateva.
ok, i tink i complained too much. lol, missed my blog too much so muz type more.
now gotta plan wat to do next wk, no jobs scheduled yet. urgh.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006,1:44 PM
all i do these few days is slack n slack.
wake up late, watch tv, eat lunch, online, either go out or STILL online,if at home, den dinner+tv and online all the way after dat. sigh.
am pretty glad will be working continuously for the next 4 days.
pass time+$$=gd!
still waiting 2 get more jobs.
dun understand why my bro refuse to work when he still has ard 4mths more b4 NS.
even my cousin his age also finding jobs liao. tsk tsk.
next wk shld be pretty nice too.
tues meeting the pl gang for ktv+dinner+mj, thurs nite till fri noon belongs to
her, sat and sun working, which leaves only mon, wed n thurs day to myself.
more den enough.
tink i shld get sum exercise done while i have the time.
haven bowled or swam or ran since dunno when.
1 whole fat ball now. heh.
tempted to do a very dumb thing ltr.
which is taking a super long bus journey from pasir ris to outram park (abt an hr+) and den taking nel to douby gaut, when the whole journey by direct train only takes abt 35mins. heh.
Monday, December 04, 2006,2:05 PM
finally exams r over.
but 2dae wasnt as nice as i expected so far.
didnt slp well last nite, couldnt really rmb wat rubbish i dreamt, all i rmb is dat i made alot of mistakes during work or sumting like dat, and i overslept and missed my exam (in the dream of coz!). urgh.
kept waking n slping bk, until i finally had to get up 2 go 4 exam.
was damn tired, tried to cram summore info in my brain, but nothing went in.
paper was supposed to start at 9am, but becoz those dumb invigilators forgot to print sum exam requirements thingy, we only got to start at 9.45am!
by that time, every1 sianz 1/2 liao.
and when i saw the ques, i knew i was doomed.
none of it i was confident abt.
but bo pian, have to choose 2 to do.
all i wrote was crap.
and i was so damn tired, i had to manually pry my eyes open occasionally and force myself to concentrate.
searched for info in my brain, but not much came.
stuck on until i really nothing to write and was in serious danger of slping on my table.
and left half an hr b4 time up.
hungry+sleepy+sad=angry
did abit of grocery shopping at w sands, and got a little happier. lol.
ended up making agar agar for
her.
and ended up w 8 mosquito bites all over my limbs during the 10mins i spent over the stove.
wat greedy mosquitoes i fed!
dats 1 reason why i seldom cook at home. urgh.
