Thursday, June 28, 2007,3:12 PM
blogging at work now.
am sooo slpy dat i m dozing off while looking at papers.
even had to resort to hiding in the toilet cubicle for a short nap.
dats how BORING my job is.
i m seriously gonna quit soon.
when i find a better one. sigh.
lucky theres novena sq right below my office, so at least i can go down 4 a short walk or grab sum snacks b4 i die on my chair. "_"
any1 who is free can always arrange to accompany me 4 lunch from 12.30 to 1.30pm! :)
Monday, June 25, 2007,9:19 PM
finally, a post full of pics!
firstly, gotta introduce to u guys this pack of vege chips!
dun be fooled by its name, it doesnt taste vege-like at all, in fact it tastes abit like those traditional crackers in sum biscuit shops (i dunno wat u call those though, for those who goes party world ktv, its like those brown crackers without the taste of spices)
and the best thing is, it comes in alot of flavours!
there is sweet chilli lime (which tastes a little like tom yam wout the spices), italian, bbq and 2 others which i forgot, good for pple who likes variety.
but the not so good thing is dat it costs $3.50 per pack!
but anyway if u wanna try, all i know is dat u can find it in the pharmacy in Changi General Hospital level 1 (of all places). heh.
next up, went billy bombers a few wks ago w the OH, i know its nothing special coz everyone heard of it already.
but maybe its becoz i haven patronised it for a long time, i suddenly find their food pretty decent.
so heres wat we had:
half a dozen cheese-baked mussels, not bad, but we would prefer oysters. but since its the best we can get, oh well.
and a plate of half-roasted chicken w sauteed veges and wedges. comfort food i guess.
a random pic: hot thai chendol from thai express.
not for those who hates coconut milk, coz theres lots of it.
and finally, someting special to share again, for those who haven tried it yet.
brownie w cheese sauce. unconventional.
a mixture of sweet and salty tastes when u eat them together.
not very delicious, but not repulsive either.
can try for the experience though.
sigh, its bk to work tmr again.
weekends pass sooo fast.
but managed to spend this wkend w the OH, so not dat bad.
didnt really get to spend as much 'us' time as i would have liked to, but guess a few hrs here n there is better den nothing.
i m still very keen on renting a rm w the OH near our workplaces.
so thus the birth of Project MO!
shall keep the details in secret for now.
went ktv w the OH juz now, and recorded some of our duets in my hp to keep.
realised dat i suddenly found the OH's voice very mesmerising, even though i hear it practically everyday. and i oso dunno why. lol.
n i tink my voice sux. esp in my hp. so much for loyalty. grrr.
mum kp asking me to buy lady-like clothes instead of loose jeans so dat i can find a bf again.
cant she juz spare me? sigh.
-off for some beauty slp-
Thursday, June 21, 2007,8:44 PM
started work on tues.
colleagues and bosses all seems pretty nice.
but i still dun like the job.
it was nvr my interest in the 1st place.
1st day was pretty boring coz my mentor was on leave, so all i had to do was to read thru a whole thick file.
but 2nd day onwards, dats where the work starts coming.
and dats only the beginning, coz my mentor says she wants to hand over more projects to me. sigh.
so these 2 days i have been trying very hard to remember wat my lecturers taught me, when i go for lectures only abt 40% of the time.
on the 2nd day, quitting came across my mind.
when i felt that i dun have enough to contribute, and i dun have the interest to feel committed to my job.
was quite tempted to cry for a moment, but being the egoistical me, of coz never lah.
when i heard my boss was resigning for better waters, i was pretty envious man.
but i guess, quitting is not an option for me at the moment, unless i can find another job which is more suitable 4 me.
and since i cant go, i have no choice but to try my best to keep my place well.
and i tink soon after, clubbing will prob be taken over by chilling on fri and sat nites.
juz like those typical office workers. tsk tsk.
and i still miss starhub.
Monday, June 18, 2007,9:15 PM
finally starting work tmr.
but i ain't excited at all.
but afraid.
afraid that my colleagues wun like me.
afraid dat its gonna be a repeat of uni life.
afraid dat i cant handle office politics.
afraid dat i cant do my job well enough.
afraid dat i cant generate any interest in watever i m doing.
afraid dat my boss will scold me.
afraid dat pple will tink i m dumb.
and the list goes on.
but its reality, and i cant change it.
nobody will understand anyway.
so its juz me against the rest.
i wish i m still in starhub.
my comfort zone.
on a happier note, all the docs gave me a clean bill of health and discharged me.
now i m hoping parents will loosen their hold on me and STOP nagging on n on.
Monday, June 11, 2007,6:02 PM
signed the letter of appointment today.
which means i officially got a job.
as a quantity surveyor.
but i m not exactly overjoyed.
guess i was hoping i could get in other industries.
shrugz.
and the reporting time is 8.30 am at Novena.
which takes me abt an hr to get there.
jus great.
seems dat i m fated to be stuck in places far away from home.
seriously considering getting an apartment near there.
toa payoh will do juz fine too. :)
*looks to the sky 4 $$*
Tuesday, June 05, 2007,1:06 PM
most of the time, u will be most disappointed with the pple closest to u.
becoz they are those u r least expected to be hurt by.
but after looking bk, u realise its juz part of reality.
pple are juz different from u.
i cant wait to have lunch with the pl gang dis sat.
dats when i can really be me.
Monday, June 04, 2007,4:29 PM
finally i have the time to type sum stuff.
i always thought i m not dat bad in maintaining any sort of relationships, considering the fact that i still have friends sticking by me even after 10yrs or so.
but sumtimes i juz dun understand.
i dun understand why some friends can accept me for exactly who i am, flaws and all, in all aspects of my personal character, not expecting me to change in order to continue the same intensity of friendship, and some cant.
not even someone whom i consider as a close friend, and another whom i see as someone very important in my life.
i never had such problems with my friends all the way from pri sch to sec sch and to jc time.
yes, we do have arguments and quarrels over issues, most arising from differences in our characters, but these issues NEVER undermined the intensity of our friendship.
no such thing as "becoz u dun wanna change this aspect of ur character, we have to 'downgrade' from being good friends to normal friends".
no such thing at all. it nvr crossed our minds.
even if we dun keep in contact for a period of time due to unresolved conflicts, or juz kp minimal contact, somehow, each of us know dat all of us will ALWAYS be in each other's hearts. no matter wat happens.
even if we refuse to say it out, we know it inside us.
but now i juz realised it doesnt work for everyone.
last night, i was told by a close friend that i should change my bo-chap-ness coz it makes her feel as though i dun really care abt the friendship and i cant be bothered to put in effort to maintain it. and dat if i still dun see a point in changing, den she juz have to 'downgrade' us from being good friends to normal acquaintances.
and she feels dat i should be more reciprocative in my words and msgs. if not i will seem as though i cant be bothered to reply, when pple actually make an effort to msg me.
eg of last nite's conversation: "if i juz msg u something like "have u had ur lunch yet?", wat will u reply?"
me: "err, either yes or no loh"
her: "yah lah! precisely! it will seem as though u cant be bothered to tok to me or sumting loh. if it was me, at least i will say sumthing like "yup, i had chicken rice juz now at wherever" lah, at least u r trying to kp the conversation going"
me: "but i m juz replying wat u are asking wat. wat else u expect me to reply? yes, i ate blah blah blah and wherever when all u ask me is whether i ate anot?"
her: "yah, if u juz reply in 1/2 word replies it will juz seem like u wan to cut off the conversation loh"
tell me, wat m i supposed to answer to dat?
and to top it off, i had these same two issues with the OH too.
so i told my fren the same thing i told the OH, i can only say i will try to change, but i wun promise anything, only time will tell.
but 2dae, it suddenly struck me.
why issit dat i have to change for the 2 of them when all my other close friends dun expect me to?
i have no answer to dat.
