Sunday, July 29, 2007,9:04 PM
i tink i have a short attention span.
now i tink i shld post food pics in this blog instead of my food blog instead.
i wanna get a new job and i have been gg for interviews, but somehow i juz cant find another 1 with at least the same basic pay as wat i m getting now. grrrrr.
it has been a nice fri nite and sat. :)
but its bk to mon again.
i m looking forward to mid-autumn festival.
i miss eating mooncakes!
every1 says i m getting fat.
prob i am. :(
maybe i shld seriously consider signing for dance classes if i can afford it.
definitely beats jogging n wat-nots.
saying 3 simple words like "i love you" can make the day of someone who cares.
but somehow, singaporeans are juz pretty unexpressive.
i really shld be born western. *shakes head*
Saturday, July 21, 2007,8:30 PM
hp has been silent since 1420hrs till now.
and is prob gonna remain dat way till i fall aslp.
*shrugz*
get used to it, mate.
its really not gd to get too dependent.
teared while watching a show, snacking on crackers and drinking bb tea.
madness.
*shakes head*
"I dun wanna lose you, i dun wanna use you.
Juz to have somebody by my side.
And i dun wanna hate you, i dun wanna take you, but i dun wanna be the 1 to cry.
But dat dun really matter, to anyone, anymore.
But like a fool i keep losing my place,
and i keep seeing you walk thru dat door.
But theres a danger in loving somebody too much,
and its sad when u know, its ur heart u cant trust.
Theres a reason why pple dun stay where they are,
baby sometimes love juz ain't enough."
maybe tmr will be a better day.
even though u make me irritatingly sad at times, i still love u all the same
Thursday, July 19, 2007,9:33 PM
went for an interview dat i spent a total of $40+ for 2dae.
and i flopped it str8. juz great.
now i m beginning to doubt my capability in sales, when i cant even 'sell' myself.
1 more door closed?
but i really wanna leave. really.
juz dat i dun have anywhere else to go.
the OH ain't having it great too.
not with that irritating friend who juz cant stop pestering the OH day n night.
i shall not be mean and elaborate further.
but i really hope the OH will get that job hoped for.
the OH really wants it, n i believe the OH deserves to have it.
but i guess, i didnt manage to help much again dis time. as usual.
maybe we both know, theres nothing very much dat either of us can do 4 each other.
maybe except to BE there, which is wat i m trying to do.
talked to a colleague abt my intention to leave 2dae.
she tried to ask me to stay for at least 6mths, but i told her how can i do so when i already thought of leaving 2wks into the job and i m juz dragging my feet to work every morn?
she sounded sad, and said "haiz, i dunno wat i can say to convince u to stay, its juz so sad lah"
i know it is.
the pple there r nice, really.
but i juz cant convince myself to stay when i actually felt like crying while doing my work.
becoz half the time i m either doing data entry or i dunno what exactly i m doing at all.
i juz follow instructions.
even the attachment students who r my juniors are given more responsibilities den me.
but i dun dare to ask for more difficult work in case i cant handle, so how?
and the list goes on.
quite glad i have this blog to complain to though.
words are always easier typed out den said. lol.
big boss wanna have a meeting w me tmr.
guess its abt the usual stuff like how i find the job and blah blah.
i originally wanted to take the chance to resign tmr.
but now i dun have much faith in my ability to find another job.
and i dun have the potential to start my cafe so soon.
and i cant keep working in starhub for long.
so basically i still dunno wat to do.
till den.......
Sunday, July 15, 2007,8:15 PM
grad pics taken by dad r finally out.
didnt realise we took quite a no of pics, so here are 3 of them:
me n dad:
Wednesday, July 11, 2007,10:26 PM
if only i need not have to survive in this world.
maybe the grass is greener above?
things dat have to be settled, HAVE to be settled. eventually.
1 step at a time.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007,10:14 PM
| Your Kiss is Green |
Your kisses are short and sweet - at least a first.
You tend to be a cautious kisser. You don't want to scare anyone off.
Once you get to know someone, your kisses are daring... and even wild.
No matter what the situation is, you know how to deliver the perfect kiss.
Kissing Type: Varied
People See Your Kisses as: Skillful
You Kiss Best With: A Blue Kisser
Stay away from: A Black Kisser |
Monday, July 09, 2007,8:17 PM
its scary when u realise dat only 1 person can make u cry buckets out of the blue, and only dat same person can make u smile after dat.
as i've said, dependency is an unavoidable sin.
every1 will have to be dependent on at least 1 other person either physically, emotionally, mentally or any combinations of the above.
sad.
some pple tink its not a bad thing though.
at least u dun haven to bear the burden of everything on ur own.
but have u ever thought dat the person u r dependent on might have to bear YOUR burden in addition to their own?
some pple are perfectly fine with it, esp if its from pple who are impt to them, but i m sure there are others who are not.
but u will never know, if u never asked and they never said.
have never cried so much in a span of a few hrs for a long time.
at least as long as i can remember.
like a punctured tap. *shakes head*
but nothing much came out of it.
i juz got tired and fell aslp.
and woke up and started again.
and fell aslp again.
boring.
i wish i could be perfect, but i juz get further and further away from it.
Sunday, July 08, 2007,5:35 PM
cool, but not insensitive.
shy, but not unwanting.
quiet, but not unspoken.
easygoing, but not undemanding.
reserved, but not unshowing.
dats wat i am.
my best attribute: heart.
my only plus point: heart.
my root of unhappiness: still heart.
am i dat hard to fathom? to understand without me having to say a word?
guess dats how alot of pple feel.
pple say "its only when u r in love with someone whom u do not consider as ideal, dat u r really in love"
so i guess i can say " i love u"
bk to work again tmr. sigh.
am eagerly finding a change of job.
abit sorry to leave my colleagues and bosses whom i tink are pretty nice to me, but not sorry to leave my job.
i wish i have $$ to start my cafe now.
and parents are driving me REALLY nuts.
i really wanna move out.
when i have the chance to.
