Sunday, May 10, 2009,10:57 PM
i finally realised that tears can be a natural form of sleeping pills, after it makes u numb, u start to feel sleepy.
dats how i managed to slp for the past few days.
its non-toxic, and washes ur eyes too.
once asked myself if i did the right thing? will i regret wat i did?
i tink my ans is no.
if i had another choice, maybe i will do the same thing again.
parting is inevitable in my circle, its juz a matter of time.
incidentally, when i went downstairs to catch sum tv this afternoon, ch8 was showing a long ago hk drama called "7-yr itch"(direct translation from chi).
and there was a scene where by this actress was telling another actor abt her parents who divorced coz the dad found another woman, so the mum let him go and brought the daughter up herself. and the actress said, although it has been so many yrs, and the mum was the 1 who let the dad go, she still believes dat her mum still loves her dad alot. so the actor asked her how does she know? so she replied, "its in the coffee". den the actor held up his cup of coffee and started to inspect it, and printed on the coffee cup, were the words "love is to have, not to hold".
and i finally understood why i did what i did.
loving sum1 is not having the person by ur side everyday, but allowing him/her to be happy for the longest time possible.
"i love u. but i cant love u the way u wan me to. so i have to let u go."
Saturday, May 09, 2009,1:57 AM
its been a long time since i came in again.
alot of things have happened since den.
some pple came, others left.
no pt harping over the past.
over wats right and wats wrong.
wat i shld have done, wat i shouldnt.
in everything in life, u have to make a choice.
theres no "best of both worlds".
1 motto i live by is "ideally, u shld make yourself AND others ard you happy. but if u cant make urself happy, at least make others happy."
love is not everything.
it doesnt give u the right to be selfish.
it doesnt give u the right to "own" anyone, no matter how strong ur love is.
as the famous phrase goes, "爱情不是占有，而是学会放手，让对方得到快乐"
"我爱你，但我没有挽留你的资格，所以我选者放你走，让你寻找你应得的快乐"
i tink dats enough said for 2dae.
