Thursday, March 29, 2007,9:09 PM
sometimes i juz feel dat i m juz not good enough in all aspects of my life.
no explanation given.
Monday, March 26, 2007,8:43 PM
if u wanna train ur patience, heres 1 way to do it: go and queue for donuts at The Donut Factory, and make sure u queue until u get ur donuts.
dats wat i did this morning, not with dat intention though.
i juz wanted to try wat exactly is so great w these donuts, tried queuing few days bk, but i gave up halfway coz both me n OH were already damn hungry n nearly late for our dinner reservation.
so dis morn, i purposely woke up earlier in the morn to queue for donuts again.
reached at ard 10am, but it wasnt open yet, so headed to nat lib to do sum work, b4 coming bk again.
when i reached at nearly 12pm, there was already a long queue and the shop is not even open yet!
and yes, i joined the bloody long queue.
so after nearly 2hrs of queuing, heres my prized trophy:
12 pcs of donuts! details will be in my food blog.
am so so SO glad the OH came down for lunch w me 2dae!
haven seen her since.....2days ago? heh.
but i guess, if she has to be sick in order to have time to meet me, i rather we not meet den...shrugz....
1 last presentation tmr, and its exam time!
dunno whether i shld be happy anot...
Sunday, March 25, 2007,10:00 AM
there goes my wkend.
i hate sundays.
because after dat comes monday and tuesday and wednesday and thursday.
i m ok with fridays.
because after dat comes saturday.
and den the vicious cycle repeats again.
not to mention i am already overdue for a deadline yest nite, and 2dae i still gotta sao mu! urgh.
i guess i have to admit, i am someone who needs alot of attention.
juz dat i dun really like to ask 4 it.
i tot the other person would know. shrugz.
and i m childish.
underneath all the cool, macho, grown-up exterior, i have childish thoughts.
juz dat i m too embarrassed to make it obvious. (which makes me wonder why the hell am i posting this?!)
ok enough, b4 i start to throw out all my chou shi.
Thursday, March 22, 2007,12:56 PM
too bo liao, so koped this from clarice's blog...
3 things...
3 things that scare me:
i. huge spiders
ii. flying insects
iii. dead bloody bodies (or part of it)
3 people who make me laugh:
i. her rendition of banglas, mrs swan and every1 else
ii. mrs swan herself
iii. generally funny pple :)
3 things I love:
i. bb tea
ii. bowling
iii. chilling out
3 things I hate:
i. backstabbers
ii. untruthfulness
iii. faking on me
3 things I don’t understand:
i. why r gals so unpredictable?
ii. why muz pple pay so much juz for a paper chase?
iii. why do emotions almost always conflict w rationality?
3 things on my desk:
i. laptop
ii. stacks of notes
iii. ezlink card n coins
3 things I’m doing right now:
i. msn-ing.
ii. blogging this meme
iii. watching L word
3 things I want to do before I die:
i. tour Europe (or at least 1 ctry in Europe)
ii. open my own cafe
iii. fufil as many of her wishes as possible
3 things I can do:
i. play a few instruments
ii. drive legally.
iii. bowl
3 things you should listen to:
i. hip-hop
ii. r&b
iii. occasional jazz (esp by saxophones)
3 things you should never listen to:
i. techno
ii. heavy metal
iii. saturnic songs
3 things I’d like to learn:
i. scuba diving
ii. jet-skiing
iii. proper culinary skills (hopefully from a masterchef)
3 favourite foods:
i. seafood
ii. potato
iii. chocs
3 beverages I drink regularly:
i. bb tea
ii. water
iii. teas everywhere else
3 TV shows I watched/books I read as a kid:
i. The Bookworm Club series
ii. teletubbies
liii. the "this is the song dat doesnt end..." show
3 people I have to tag:
i. YOU
ii. any1 else
iii. and any1 else too
Tuesday, March 20, 2007,8:24 PM
got bk my eng test result juz now.
failed.
by 7 marks.
guess i cannot blame any1 except myself.
doing the eng proj w 2 eng brainies.
1 is a eng lit major, the other is an E lang major who is 1 of the top 3 scorers in the test.
n me? juz someone who took 2 prev eng mods and tot it wasnt too diff and thus decided to step into this blop of mud without even realising it.
issit my fortune or my detriment?
lucky they r pretty nice pple.
but i still feel guilty for not contributing becoz i dun even fully understand wat r they saying. :(
day passes so slow.
took juz half a pill this morn b4 viewing a web lec, and it is enough to make me slp for 1hr+ and cause my hands to shake for a few hrs.
no kidding man, my words came out like chicken feet scrawling, so i decided to type instead.
but no choice, have to travel 3hrs to and fro sch juz for a 1hr tut becoz i already received a warning email. urgh.
finally gg bk to work tmr.
i kinda miss ihub though.
but i miss the $$ more. heh.
i wish i could take up more jobs.
earn more $$, got something to spend time on.
den prob the days will pass faster, and i will be happier.
ok dis is starting to sound like a diary entry.
oh well, this is the only avenue i can fa lao sao on. lol.
Monday, March 19, 2007,8:37 PM
1 test down, 1 more to go.
monday blues setting in.
and the fever and ulcer are not helping.
but the day is finally gg to be over.
which means its 1 day closer to the wkend. :)
to be honest, am a little disappointed that none (or rather most) of the pple i loved (and supposedly loved me) remembered my birthday.
not dat i m expecting much from them anyway.
but i guess, once gone, nothing left.
i cant wait to grad and find a gd-paying job.
its really not easy to have 1 partner studying and 1 working.
and wait till i get to kill that disgusting mosquito dat fed on so much of my blood!
Sunday, March 18, 2007,9:19 PM
so fast, and the wkend is over.
had a great birthday wkend!
started out w dinner and rochor beancurd on fri w the OH.
den had lunch at crystal jade w the pl gang, complete w a very interesting cake dat got me a little bit 'drunk', and a very very nice present on sat.
den met the OH for dinner after dat, she booked a table at this place dat i have been wanting to go for quite some time, bottle-tree park!
kudos to her for trying to kp it a secret from me for abt a wk, but she still stopped short of succeeding by a day. :p
after dinner went to watch Stomp The Yard, ok show, dancing ok, plot usual, prob not worth a $9 tix for me.
after dat went Cable Car to slack awhile, and tokked quite abit abt stuff, prob more serious stuff den we have ever tokked abt in the past few wks. but its gd i guess. :)
both of us only had abt 6hrs of slp, b4 we met for k lunch on sun morning.
went temple to pray after dat, and we both went home for dinner.
had steamboat at home with yummy food, and bro baked a cake for me dis yr (with help from mum lah). surprising sia, muz be training for his gf lah. lol.
and b4 i knew it, *poof* 1 wkend gone. :(
and dis wk there are 2 tests and 1 proj waiting 4 me. sigh.
but all in all, a great thanks to everyone!
thanks x 6 to the pl gang (all those who came, and even all those who didnt), thanks alot gals!
thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday! among those, yiwei, LS, bel, colleagues from starhub, etc.
and last but not least, a very very big thank you to the 1 person who has been sharing my life w me for the past 5mths and 26 days and counting (i tink u know who u are :p)
and of coz, a big thank you to my parents and bro (although i really hope they wun get to see this here *ooops*)
oh man, now this post sounds like a thank you speech. lol.
okok, updated enough for now, shall enjoy the rest of my sun, b4 i wake up tmr and face the dreaded sch again. :(
every quarrel is a scar in a relationship. some big, some small. some heal with time, others stay forever. but despite it all, scars still make you learn.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007,5:26 PM
finally, 1 essay and 1 proj down.
1 more proj to go b4 exams.
and i will be leaving NUS for good. :)
heard some of my classmates already found jobs.
starting pay ard 2k.
guess its time for me to do up a decent resume and start mass-sending it out.
even though i really REALLY dun like this industry.
pple are really hard to fathom.
when u really want them to take ur words seriously, they tink u r a joke.
yet when u try to be frivalous and dun care, they sit up str8 and listen.
pple. *shakes head*
with every sentence, lies an underlying reason.
wat u see, might not be wat u get.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007,7:55 PM
juz remembered theres an essay due tmr dis morning.
skipped sch and went nat lib to do some research coz its nearer den NUS.
but realised i didnt brg my wallet out only when i reached there.
so all i can do is take down notes on pieces of fullscap paper coz i cant brg my bag in. urgh.
got so sick and tired of reading dat i left after nearly 2hrs.
so i basically spent half an afternoon out wout my wallet, except for $1.50 in coins in my pocket. and i actually managed to stop myself from buying bb tea w those miserable coins i have. lol.
and now i gotta start rushing out my essay when all i really wanna do is lie on my bed and slp.
and not to mention i gotta reach sch at 10am tmr to prepare for a presentation, which i have to wear "NICE FORMAL". sigh.
i cant wait 4 wkends to come.
fri will do juz as fine too.
among all the rest, only you are worthy of nothing less than everything
Monday, March 12, 2007,1:08 PM
aint a very nice day 2day.
woke up slightly later, didnt noe why my hp alarm didnt ring.
lucky mum called if not i would have slept till goodness noes when.
tot i had a test 2dae, so wanted to go sch earlier to get a seat.
only to realise when i was comfortably seated in the lec hall, dat there wasnt a test 2dae.
was freaking out when i tot i missed the test last wk when i went for proj meeting.
and since i didnt have any stuff for 2dae's lec, i left b4 it started and went to the comp lab instead.
lucky i realised the test was next wk and not last wk. phew.
theres juz so many fucking deadlines and meetings to remember, i shld seriously start writing a notebk or something.
but something nice to look forward to ltr, gonna collect my new altered jeans from S&K! :)
and gonna have something really SPICY to vent my anger on b4 dat. urgh.
the best way to avoid a question, is to avoid answering it
Tuesday, March 06, 2007,9:56 PM
juz had a sociology test dis morn.
and i tink i m gonna fail.
i juz realised i have another wave of deadlines coming up again.
eng test next wk, project rpt due on fri, project presentation on 14 mar, assignment due on 23 mar (i tink), another assignment somewhere in april and gdness knows wat else.
dats all i can rmb.
i need slp.
thurs is finally coming.
but most of the excitement seems to have worn off.
feeling neglected again.
but i know its not any1's fault.
i cant wait to work.
so dat i can be busy with something i like to do.
i juz advised a friend this: "if u wan to do something for someone, do it without expecting anything bk in return, becoz if u do, u will most likely be disappointed if you cant get wat u hoped for."
but i guess, its easier said den done.
pple say i dun care much.
i am frivalous, bo chap and throw everything at pple.
but no1 really knows why.
becoz i dun wan to be disappointed again, dats why.
sometimes the disappointment doesnt arise from others, it could juz be from urself.
i dun like to explain.
becoz it will only blur things further.
i m rather verbally retarded at times, remember?
i wanna go kampong-touring.
juz for a few hrs oso gd.
any1 wanna come along?
eyeing a day in bottle-tree village at yishun.
we can have seafood over there! :)
18 mar coming.
suddenly i dun feel like growing up so fast.
so many responsibilities and roles to play.
i cant be childish anymore.
i have to think about consequences, pple, blah blah.
can i work and earn $$ and open my cafe AND remain young?
Saturday, March 03, 2007,11:32 PM
work at vivo 2dae was shag.
13hrs+ of nearly non-stop standing and less den 30 miserable sales.
regretted agreeing to work 2dae.
was looking 4ward to the OH coming down to have lunch w me today, but alas.
lucky another fren was nice enough to come all the way down juz to eat lunch w me. :)
wanted to go her pub have a drk after work to thank her for coming down, but was quite shagged, n not really in the mood, and tmr gotta wake up damn early for some temple trip. urgh.
so i guess, yw, we have to make dis date for another time bah.
next wk is gonna be another fake wk at sch.
i am SOOO looking forward to it. *rolls eyes*
Thursday, March 01, 2007,8:23 PM
am so glad the day is finally nearly over.
only have 4 words to describe my day: cold, hungry, tired, fake.
anything shorter? unhappy.
yah i know, pple are prob saying "u asked for it wan mah" behind my bk, i know.
working tmr at ihub, sat at vivo, next sat at suntec, next sun at ihub.
i m supposed to be excited abt it like in the past, but it seems dat i m no longer.
work has became a form of escapism now, and of coz, a source of income.
maybe i m juz sick of cashiering.
i have a short attention span i guess.
wei she mo zai wo zui xu yao ni de shi hou, ni dou bu zai wo shen bian,
er dang ni zui xu yao wo pei de shi hou, wo que li ni hen yuan?
i am craving for ktv, i dunno why.
i cant wait for 8 mar.
dad's coming bk 2nite, and the only time i used the car when he was overseas was to fetch mum to bus stop, and make 1 rd bk.
wasted.
i still wan MY suzuki swift.
12 pcs of donuts! details will be in my food blog.