Sunday, April 29, 2007,11:21 PM
*in a grumbling mood*
made a fucking bad decision juz now.
all i originally wanted is juz to get a pkt of small fries.
n den wat went thru my brain was medium fries, mc chicken, double cheeseburger, and finally i ended up mouthing "1 choc milkshake" to the serving staff.
and dats when i dun even drk milk! sigh.
after i bot it, i took 1 sip and was full of regret. damn milky lah!!
and when i was walking to the interchange silently grumbling abt the loss of fries, i saw dat the bb tea shop is still open!!
so first, i gave up a nice pkt of $1.50 fries for a milky $2.20 milkshake, and THEN i missed the chance to buy a cup of yummy $1.20 bb tea!! (becoz its quite dumb to be drking a milkshake AND a bb tea at the same time rite??)
so dumb. and now i m grouchy.
i hate it whenever i decide to go w my feelings and do wat i wanted to do, it turned out to be a bad decision. and when i start to put sum brain cells to gd use and think carefully for a gd action, it turned out to be a worse choice!! wat the heck!!
forget it. tmr will be better. i m juz too tired.
a nice line dat no1 has ever said to me b4: "whenever u need me, juz call my name and i'll be there"
Wednesday, April 25, 2007,8:46 PM
finally, exams r over!!
but sadly, no nite activities for me on the last day of exams. shrugz.
nway, i tink my mum is right, i m really quite bad at controlling my money.
here's why:
after exams, i didnt have any plans coz no1 i asked was free, so decided to take bus 10 to katong area to get sum food.
originally, all i wanted to do is to go parkway parade to get sum stuff for my dinner, coz parents n bro are eating out, so left me alone 4 dinner.
in the end, here's wat i did.
i stopped at katong shopping centre, and looked for this bakery dat was featured in 1 of the food shows hosted by desmond koh and jamie teo, dat sold fruit pies.
and from that shop, i bot 1 slice of banana pie, 1 slice of peach pie and 1 slice of apple pie ($1.80 each, pics will be up another time).
after dat i was still hungry (coz i haven ate anything since brunch at home), so i decided to walk down "the katong road" towards roxy square, hoping dat i bump into sum interesting food stall on the way. but nopez.
and to top it all, i walked past all the 3 famous katong laksa stalls (they were side by side lah), but i didnt eat any laksa from any of them!! (all thx to the 3 bouts of diarrheoa i heard b4 exams) sigh
next, when i finally got to parkway parade, i went to the hawker ctr to search for the famous Lao Pa Sat Pig's Organ Soup & Kway Chap, and had a bowl of kway chap ($3.30, pics oso up another day).
after i finally
tian bao du zi already, went parkway parade to do sum shopping.
ended up w 1 small bottle of somen soba (the soy sauce for soba noodles, $5.40), and 1 uncooked, marinated tandoori chicken breast ($2.50).
so basically, juz becoz i m bored, and juz a short impromptu trip to katong area, there goes $16.60! haha!
so the equation i am looking at is:
cold soba noodles+tandoori chicken breast+coke+1 orange+assorted pies=my dinner for 2day! (pics up another day too, heh.)
its clubbing tmr!! woohoo!!
but after dat, gonna be damn damn broke. urgh.
Sunday, April 22, 2007,5:57 PM
i dun like pple forcing me to do things i dun wanna do at that moment.
even though i know it is wat i SHOULD do.
u can try to coax, humour or persuade me, but dun ORDER me to do it.
i will resist it strongly, and nothing gets done in the end.
dats the childish part of me. sigh.
these days i have been wondering, i know i am a stubborn person, but have i took my stubborness too far?
are there times whereby i should have stepped down and let loose?
or let my rationality overrule my emotions?
shld i continue standing by my principles, or shld i let the pple ard me have their way sometimes?
in a span of less den 2 mths, my stubbornness denied me the company of 2 friends.
1 of which i knew for more den 2yrs, the other nearly a yr.
all becoz of 2 separate miscommunications, which i nvr did try to clear up.
up to dis day, i nvr felt i was wrong in my decisions regarding those two matters, but maybe my fault lies in how i handled them.
till now, neither of us made the 1st move to contact the other via any means.
i dunno abt their reasons for that, but i know mine is mainly stubbornness.
i dun see why i should make the 1st move if i m not the 1 at fault.
but sumtimes its better to let live?
i guess i juz cant convince myself yet.
furthermore, i dunno how would things be like even if we met up again.
pple say there r no
ge ye chou between friends.
but pple oso say its easy to forgive, but diff to forget.
will u get sick of seeing me after doing so consecutively for a wk?
2 papers tmr and i still cant bring myself to study wholeheartedly.
i know this is my last exams and i should juz go 4 it (9 out of 10 pple i know keeps reminding me dat), but i cant help it if the mood is not there rite???
but as usual, i dun have a choice.
i will juz have to glue my eyes on my notes if the need arises.
emotional reliance is not good in the long term.
becoz no1 can be with you 24/7.
thats how the word "independence" arises.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007,8:59 PM
i can be an easygoing person in general, but there r still some things i CANNOT tolerate.
i dun like pple venting their anger/fustration at me (or pple close to me) after a bad day at sch/work, and STILL insisting it is my fault.
everything happens for a reason, and every case should be treated separately unless obviously shown otherwise.
worse still, i dun like pple to complain/disturb my partner becoz of sumthing they r not happy abt me.
if they tink i did something wrong and they r seriously not happy abt it, tell me directly. if i agree i m at fault, i will apologise. if i dun tink i am, i will reason my stand out. we may shout and quarrel, but after dat it should be solved.
DUN ever resort to venting ur anger/fustrations on my partner. humans r very protective over the pple they love. i will take it very hardly.
thirdly, dun malign me for sumthing i didnt do. if u tink i did sumthing wrong, ask me for an explanation. u deserve to have 1, and its my responsibility to give u 1. dun ASSUME i have the intention to do wat u tink i did. humans do err unintentionally.
but if u ask for an explanation and i give u 1, i believe its mutual respect to believe the explanation dat came directly from me. if u wan to make me give the same explanation 3 times or more (there can only be 1 truth, even if u make me say 10 times, i will still say the same thing) and STILL not believe it without any reasonable grounds, den i rather u NOT ask me at all. but dun expect me to make the 1st move to pacify u.
juz a general point here, adults should have full knowledge and responsibility over their words and actions. if u insist on doing sumthing against the odds of reality, u have to learn to bear the consequences arising from it YOURSELF. if u r still a kid, fine, theres still an avenue to close 1 eye and say u r immature. if u r already an adult (or consider urself to be one), theres no excuse for it. i have to apply this rule to myself too.
i m not being harsh here, and i have no ill intentions. i juz wanna be straighforward so my stand comes across clear.
,8:13 PM
urgh manz, there goes my nice wkend! :(
met her from fri to 2dae!
and she stayed over for 2nites! (but nothing happened)
went cafe del mar in sentosa yest afternoon to suntan, great place, with the sea, soft beds, drks, sun, etc. (but no hot babes/dudes when i went though)
rented a car after dat, and went ard to eat.
bak kut teh at katong, rochor dou hua at princep, jalan kayu prata, free ben n jerrys cone at w sands, popeye chicken at airport....yumz!
but b4 we noe it, 2 days has passed. urgh.
and guess both of us r pretty shagged 2nite. lol.
this wk is gonna be busy.
gotta really start studying for exams starting this sat.
but this is her ONLY free wk, so i wanna try and see her as much as i can b4 the cycle starts again.
so i guess, it all boils down to careful planning. shrugz.
and i turned down alot of sales slots for the 1st time. damnz, bad timing. :(
i cant wait to grad.
and i dun wanna NOT grad.
but i really, seriously HATE studying. urgh.
and i still have NO job offers becoz my cover letter is STILL not done.
sigh. :(
Tuesday, April 10, 2007,11:01 PM
"As you emo, I'll be the eyes for you to tear.And a smile from me, is a smile I want to you."dis is all it took to release some of the pent-up tears i tried so hard to hold in all this while.
Friday, April 06, 2007,4:17 PM
| You Are a Sensitive Kisser |
For you, kissing is a way to connect
And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy
It may take you a while to kiss someone...
But when you do, it's total fireworks |
,3:58 PM
happy gd friday!!
which oso means its 2 wks more to exams! urgh.
went twoqueens party @ PLAY w the OH and frenz last nite.
damn packed sia...but saw alot of pple...
there was irene ang, fiona xie, andrew seow and i dunno who else...
and not to mention, alot of PL gals!
3 from my batch (including me, wun mention names) and the rest all juniors....
lol happening sia! and now my voice is slightly hoarse from all the shouting...shrugz...
quite tempted to go 4 the weekly r&b parties after exams...grinz...
nothing very exciting happen thru out the wk though...
prob applying for a hospitality mgmt training prog by The Ascott Group, which requires me to go to vietnam or china for a 12-18mth training prog, and den come bk to sg to work 4 them 4 at least 2yrs....sounds interesting to me....but the gg overseas part is a prob though.....finally managed to convince parents to let me go for it if i get chosen....but which means i have to leave the OH and all my frenz behind....sigh....doubt i will get chosen anyway....i dun have anything spectacular to show...shrugz....
everybody is looking 4 jobs liao...so its time i get started on my cover letter! (ok dats wat i have been saying 4 the past few wks...heh)
wish me luck!
Monday, April 02, 2007,4:18 PM
what if i cant graduate w honours?
should i still go bk home?
