Friday, May 26, 2006,10:19 PM
yet another day.
went cityhall to do sumting.
went tan jong pagar to collect sumting.
went bk cityhall to do sumting again.
went home 4 dinner.
how interesting can my day be?
asked myself the same few questions the whole day.
wat am i doing w my life?
who m i even living for?
myself would prob be the most politically correct answer.
but its quite un-convincing.
coz this is not the life i wan.
read someone's blog juz now.
made me a little angry at 1st, but den got me thinking later on.
after a r/s has ended, wat kind of memories do u leave the other person and vice versa?
do we split in hatred? amicably? or it reached a stage where it doesnt even matter at all?
wat does it say abt us den?
if we split in hatred, does it mean that we are unable to bring out the gd in the r/s?
if we split amicably, does it mean that we can forgive n forget all the wrongs we did to each other?
if it doesnt matter, does it mean the r/s was a mistake from the start?
maybe there cant be 1 fixed ans?
maybe we juz dun feel the same way abt the end of the r/s?
wat good does it do if i end up blaming u, n u do the same to me?
but its not so easy to revert bk to the way things were b4 a r/s.
start all over as frenz again? certain memories, gd n bad, cant be erased.
after a r/s, if both can move on w their lives n remain frenz, dats gd.
if only 1 party wans to remain frenz and the other is still hostile, its troublesome.
if both parties wan to remain hostile throughout, the r/s has became pointless.
isn't a r/s supposed to be a blissful union btw 2 pple in love?
how can it end up in hatred? i have no ans.
if pple were simpler, and have less expectations,maybe there wun be breakups and sadness.
but it only exists in my own idealistic world.
