Wednesday, June 21, 2006,9:52 PM
had a boxing session w wayne juz now.
feeling of being hit is nice.
too bad she couldnt hit my face, coz i didnt wan to invite trouble from parents.
so all she aimed were my arms and body. lol.
my invitation for pple to come and hit me is still valid.
juz drop me a msg to let me noe.
no retaliation guaranteed. :)
its been a long time since i was so lost.
gone are the days when i have control on myself.
gone are the days where i can juz do wat i wan.
i wish someone could help, but i noe no1 could.
these days i m juz forcing myself to do things i dun wan to do.
and i dun even noe the reason y.
someone juz need to beat the brains out of me.
i need slp.
b4 my face turns black.
i tried, but all i do is kp waking up every few hrs in the nite.
even panadol doesnt help.
aarrgghh.
and all i can do to stay awake at nite and not smoke, is eat.
everynite and day i m juz gorging myself w food.
dis sucks.
hope tmr will be a better day.
