Wednesday, July 26, 2006,9:53 PM
finally bk from chalet.
suddenly so many things happened in 1 nite.
getting drunk sucks.
not gonna touch alcohol for 1 more day. lol.
after everything, i finally decided to face reality.
to accept the fact all these while, it has always been u.
the fact dat no matter how hard i try, ur place in my heart can nvr be replaced.
the fact dat maybe i juz refused to try hard enuff.
the fact that u never loved me, and dun even have any feelings left for me anymore.
the fact that i can only remain a 'brother'.
the fact that whenever possible, i will be there for u when u need me.
the fact that i have been hoping all these while dat u will ever need me at all.
the fact that i am a little jealous of ur frenz, becoz u are so close to them.
the fact that i m more den willing to travel across the island even if its to see u for a short while.
the fact that the main reason for me to intro as many of my frenz to u is becoz i want u to be part of my life.
the fact that i purposely went to learn 2 duets dat u liked so i can sing with u in ktv, and not becoz i liked those songs.
the fact that i will do almost anything to protect u and make u happy.
the fact that my heart cracked when u said u dun have feelings for me anymore, u love her, and u will always be my 'brother'.
the fact that everytime i force myself not to contact u and not to tink of u, it hurts.
the fact that becoz i wanted to protect our frenship, i can never let u noe abt all these.
the fact that whenever i get to see u, i am juz automatically happy.
all these and many more.
its time to face facts.
but i m still not rdy to say it in ur face.
