Friday, September 15, 2006,11:32 AM
2dae is a free day, thx to my tutor and grp mates!
but its raining like hell now, oso cant go anywhere.
damnit. shrugz.
had a pretty nice nite yest. :)
but had a horrible slp last nite.
went to bed at 12+, but couldnt get to slp.
tried listening to emo songs and tossed and turned for dunno how many hrs.
i only can rmb i was damn pissed off at myself.
ok, maybe i tink too much.
and when i finally got to slp at dunno wat time, i STILL dun get peace.
had a disgusting bad dream.
was being attacked by a cockroach-like creature and and humongous dragonfly?!
the cockroach-like thing managed to get its way into my throat and happily stayed there while i was trying to gorge it out!
and when dat was finally done, the humongous dragonfly had to appear and terrorise me by attacking my back?!
manz, how suay can i be sia.
woke up suddenly in a shock, and juz laid there stunned for awhile b4 i went bk to slp.
too damn tired lah.
tink it was daytime le, coz can feel light coming thru my windows.
there goes my supposed free-to-slp-as-late-as-i-wan nite. urgh.
received a call from my boss, have more working days le!
but i juz realised something, i gotta work on the 1st sat of oct, so i dun tink i can make it for the next gathering le. sorry ahbu!
the present reality is ever-changing.
sumtimes gd, sumtimes bad.
but past experiences has already made its impact.
unless i can be totally sure, i cant afford to let myself have hopes and expectations.
i hate to force myself to do things i dun wanna do, but i dun have a choice.
reality juz cant give me 1.
