Thursday, September 21, 2006,8:34 PM
dedicated to
you:
i dunno why am i telling
you all these.
i dun even know if its the right thing to do.
but i chose to open up about my feelings, coz i hope dat 1 day,
you can open up about yours too.
considering the time we really got to know each other, everything btw us seems fast.
time has never been a problem to me, but i guess it is to
you.
but dun worry, i understand.
even me myself cant believe how much my feelings for
you has grown during this period of time.
even forcing myself to kp a distance from
you in all aspects doesnt help.
all i can think abt everyday and nite is
you, and i dun even have a choice not to.
it sucks to have to say this, but everytime we tok on the fone, i wish we didnt have to put down, everytime we meet, i wish we didnt have to leave, everytime we are apart, i wished the next meeting would come.
but
you juz seem so cool abt everything.
maybe its not a bad thing bah, coz i wouldnt want
you to be unhappy.
i trust
you as a person and friend, ur character and all, but as for ur feelings, honestly, i dunno.
you seem nice to almost every gd friend, i cant tell if theres any diff btw me and them.
i am not complaining, the fact dat
you are nice is 1 of the pts dat attracted me to
you in the 1st place.
maybe i am not expressive to
you enough, maybe
you cant feel dat much of my love, so
you are too scared to reciprocate even if
you wan to?
or maybe, deep down inside, i am juz a gd friend?
i know i seem like a weakling for saying all these, and honestly speaking, i thought abt it for a few days b4 deciding to write this.
i dunno if anything will come out of this, i dunno if anything will change.
i juz hope
you wun be angry or unhappy after reading this.
i wun expect anything from
you, i juz wanna be honest, dats all.
