Thursday, November 02, 2006,8:14 PM
its as though all energy have been zapped from me.
i m juz so tired. again.
pple shld juz stop getting on my nerves.
cleared 1 more presentation dis morn.
after only abt 4-5hrs of slp.
my rm was suddenly damn cold last nite, n i didnt have a blanket, so tried all sorts of postures to slp.
sat crosslegged w head down on the pillow, lay on my side with legs tucked in, sat crosslegged w head resting on my bed (i was slping on a mattress on the floor), etc.
u name it, i tink i done it.
even have to resort to slping in the toilet (coz there no aircon mah) for abt an hr.
but didnt dare to increase the temp or off the aircon coz
she was wrapped up like an eskimo, only exposing
her head and neck (yeah, she stayed over last nite). lol.
but i still like looking at
her slp.
although i cant really see much in the dark. heh.
but juz as always, whenever i m enjoying sumting gd, sumting negative muz hit me.
i m a coward, i know.
i plan so long to do sumting, only to back out like a chicken at the last min.
wats new.
more or less numb to it liao.
everytime sumting like dat happens, all i end up telling myself is "see? u gave it up again. huo gai!" wateva.
had a small quarrel w mum juz now.
all becoz i told her i wanna stay over at my fren's hse tmr for overnite mj, and asked her also to sponsor my concession pass for dis mth.
1st, i dun play mj all the time loh!!
she made it sound as if i m addicted to mj, and things like clubbing and dunno wat shit.
kaoz. the no of times i really play mj in a yr can use 10 fingers to count loh.
and i haven even gone clubbing dis yr!!
ok, maybe once, but i didnt tell her. heh. and i didnt even stay out late lah.
she say even if i strike lottery, i will also waste all my $$ away de. kaoz.
and she came and say dat last time I was the 1 who told her i will settle my concession myself!
last time i was still giving tuition so got double income loh!
now i m only working in starhub, and its only few days a mth!
where got enuff for concession+pocket $$+sch notes+leisure+shopping??? urgh.
forgot it.
cant be bothered to go on arguing w her.
i will settle EVERYTING myself.
lucky i m meeting
her and frenz tmr.
and working w
her on sat.
she is wat i need most now. urgh.
