Monday, January 29, 2007,8:04 PM
its another mon.
went for the 1st measurement tutorial with dreaded feelings.
i tot its was another grpwork thing, where i have to start my whole "faking" session again.
dun get me wrong, i dun have anything against working with pple, juz not those in my fac. most of them anyway.
i will not get into details on wat i went thru these 4 years, but i m really glad to grad soon.
i m getting really tired of all these. really.
but on a lighter note, my tutor finally changed it to an individual tutorial.
which means 10% of my marks all lie in my hands.
i dunno if dats gd or bad.
met up w cec, ching n her gf for lunch at munchie monkeys.
haven seen ching 4 damn long man.
still as stylo as ever. lol.
tokked abt sum future stuff.
she plans to have a fake marriage when the need arises, den live with her real partner, and maybe her gay "husband's" partner too.
2 same-sex couples under the same roof.
sounds like an idea to me. LOL.
felt like a little gal on the way home.
slept the whole train journey from boon lay to pasir ris, head leaning against the glass partition, hugging my sch bag.
bot a kit-kat ice cream at pasir ris while waiting for the bus.and "sucked" water from my water bottle.
i dunno whether pple were looking at my ice cream or at me, but i dun care.
i haven had ice cream 4 quite sum time.
made me a little happier.
but made me have the feeling of juz disappearing into some ulu kampong, sitting facing the sea, and eating an ice cream cone. shrugz.
maybe i haven gone on a holiday for quite some time.
or maybe i juz need an occasional me-with-nature time.
i am not emo, juz tired.
or at least dats wat i choose to believe. :)
i shld start sending my resumes soon.
some of my peers already got a job b4 they even grad.
but honestly, i dunno if i m up to this.
spent my 4 yrs balancing on a thin fence btw success n failure.
but i definitely know one thing, judging by the way things are going now, i cant afford to fail.
to put it simply, i need a high paying job w a good future.
even if i have to die of stress becoz of it, i dun have a choice.
not until i can save enough $$ to do wat i REALLY wan.
so yeah, shall start praying hard i can secure a job, the earlier the better.
