Sunday, April 22, 2007,5:57 PM
i dun like pple forcing me to do things i dun wanna do at that moment.
even though i know it is wat i SHOULD do.
u can try to coax, humour or persuade me, but dun ORDER me to do it.
i will resist it strongly, and nothing gets done in the end.
dats the childish part of me. sigh.
these days i have been wondering, i know i am a stubborn person, but have i took my stubborness too far?
are there times whereby i should have stepped down and let loose?
or let my rationality overrule my emotions?
shld i continue standing by my principles, or shld i let the pple ard me have their way sometimes?
in a span of less den 2 mths, my stubbornness denied me the company of 2 friends.
1 of which i knew for more den 2yrs, the other nearly a yr.
all becoz of 2 separate miscommunications, which i nvr did try to clear up.
up to dis day, i nvr felt i was wrong in my decisions regarding those two matters, but maybe my fault lies in how i handled them.
till now, neither of us made the 1st move to contact the other via any means.
i dunno abt their reasons for that, but i know mine is mainly stubbornness.
i dun see why i should make the 1st move if i m not the 1 at fault.
but sumtimes its better to let live?
i guess i juz cant convince myself yet.
furthermore, i dunno how would things be like even if we met up again.
pple say there r no
ge ye chou between friends.
but pple oso say its easy to forgive, but diff to forget.
will u get sick of seeing me after doing so consecutively for a wk?
2 papers tmr and i still cant bring myself to study wholeheartedly.
i know this is my last exams and i should juz go 4 it (9 out of 10 pple i know keeps reminding me dat), but i cant help it if the mood is not there rite???
but as usual, i dun have a choice.
i will juz have to glue my eyes on my notes if the need arises.
emotional reliance is not good in the long term.
becoz no1 can be with you 24/7.
thats how the word "independence" arises.
