Thursday, July 19, 2007,9:33 PM
went for an interview dat i spent a total of $40+ for 2dae.
and i flopped it str8. juz great.
now i m beginning to doubt my capability in sales, when i cant even 'sell' myself.
1 more door closed?
but i really wanna leave. really.
juz dat i dun have anywhere else to go.
the OH ain't having it great too.
not with that irritating friend who juz cant stop pestering the OH day n night.
i shall not be mean and elaborate further.
but i really hope the OH will get that job hoped for.
the OH really wants it, n i believe the OH deserves to have it.
but i guess, i didnt manage to help much again dis time. as usual.
maybe we both know, theres nothing very much dat either of us can do 4 each other.
maybe except to BE there, which is wat i m trying to do.
talked to a colleague abt my intention to leave 2dae.
she tried to ask me to stay for at least 6mths, but i told her how can i do so when i already thought of leaving 2wks into the job and i m juz dragging my feet to work every morn?
she sounded sad, and said "haiz, i dunno wat i can say to convince u to stay, its juz so sad lah"
i know it is.
the pple there r nice, really.
but i juz cant convince myself to stay when i actually felt like crying while doing my work.
becoz half the time i m either doing data entry or i dunno what exactly i m doing at all.
i juz follow instructions.
even the attachment students who r my juniors are given more responsibilities den me.
but i dun dare to ask for more difficult work in case i cant handle, so how?
and the list goes on.
quite glad i have this blog to complain to though.
words are always easier typed out den said. lol.
big boss wanna have a meeting w me tmr.
guess its abt the usual stuff like how i find the job and blah blah.
i originally wanted to take the chance to resign tmr.
but now i dun have much faith in my ability to find another job.
and i dun have the potential to start my cafe so soon.
and i cant keep working in starhub for long.
so basically i still dunno wat to do.
till den.......
